shona

pretty boring

Mon, 23 Feb 2004 08:30:05 PST

well it's been since saterday since i wrote in this soo yesterday my dad came over and so did laura and frank frank came over b/c he got in a car accident and went thru the wind-sheild and now he's sueing the driver.my dad wound up spending the night.everyone went home this morning and my grandma called the court to find out what the legal age is for a child to choose where they wanna live the people have'nt called us back yet. around 2 we went to the hospital for judi's appointment then we dropped judi off at home and went to the vet to pick up curio. i saw the cutest grey-hound dog and now i want a grey-hound puppy for my b-day (24 days). well we just got home about 30 minz ago. and thats all i did today...

i should of i could of i would of i didn't

Sat, 21 Feb 2004 03:26:25 PST

i should have went to youth group last night...i really should have...i got into another fight w/ my mom about joe...nothing new... we been fighting a lot lately... i guess i'm at that stage when i'm really moody and shit...well i'm loosing my mom and i feel like i'm loosing my dad too... i really wish i wasn't me right now i wish i could just get away spend a day with my friends or just sitting by a river or something like that...i just needa get away for a day maybe...at least a couple hours or so...

well it's been a while since i wrote in this so...well thursday i went to school and i don't remeber what happened there but amanda slept over that night omg... i'm a queer fag and she's a fag queer ... lol ... yesterday was green and white day omg it was sooo fun amanda and i we put our hair in pig tails and then i braided mine about half way and put it into a bun on each side and sprayed one side white and the other green amanda did almost the same but she just had 2 buns (not braid) we had DMS writen on our cheeck and a shooting star on the other one and we had green and white eye-shadow on (mine was darker--lol) we wore a white long sleeve shirt and a green short sleeve shirt over it i wore white pants she wore blue i had white sandles she had green and our feet were freezing ltterally...then last night i got into another fight with my mom b/c she said i can't go to my grandma's wedding out in illinois and then she told me not asked me if i wanted to but told me i was going to go to either her house or my nanas house over vacation for a few days i dont want to... then when i leave her and dumb-ass i mean joe are going to pelham to see the jack-ass's kids and they're going to stay in a hotel for a few days and my said that i don't want to go b/c i don't want to be near someone who cares about me.. yeah right like he cares... the day he cares is the day ppl in hell get ice in their water...
i wish i could just get away for a little while...

well i wrote in this earlier on today so i'm back to write more well today was uneventful i watched like 2-3 movies in my room then my dad came over (oh what a joy) well i came outta my room sat at the table and watched them play cards i was really bored and my dad was being mean i guess so i squirt him with the water bottle and theni ran to my room and locked the door b/c he went and got a cup of water to pour over my head so i opened the door as i heard him talking from a distance and i kept squirting him (with water) and he got mad and said i had an attitude so now he's mad at me and my mom's mad at me and feel very very lonely...i wish i could change the past...

DAMN IT!!!

Wed, 18 Feb 2004 10:47:35 PST

OMG!!!Joe moved back in!! i hate this i hate this i hate this and of course i hate him omg i hate him sooo much!!! he should definately die and burn in hell he should he really should!!!

anyway i wasted enough energy typing about him... so this is how my day went math-corrected homework and took notes science-substitute book work l.a.-the debate and reading s.s-went to the library...w.l.-those map things i had to re-do 'em b/c i had the wrong folder with me...wellness-watched a movie did a worksheet talked about rape and how most ppl are raped when they're drunk and brett said they should wear metal underwear..lol..i had to leave like a couple min. early b/c my mentor mrs.duffy was there early so i finished all my homework in like 10 min. then i HAD to go to homework help but it was ok b/c amanda stayed to wait for me and we just sitting there talking and dan g. was totally dis-respecting mr.franz way more than usual it was kinda funny but i thought it was disrespectfull oh well my oppinion doesn't matter they're still gunna be dis-respectful...after school my grandma drove amanda home after dropping off steve (judi's boyfriend) and we talked about green and whit day and i think she might be sleeping over tomorrow night!:) i can't wait... well i guesse thats all that happened today oh yeah in l.a. mrs.hutchison said i look cute in a baseball cap... i think she hit her head on something...

happiness!!

Tue, 17 Feb 2004 12:18:30 PST

well its been so long since i wrote in this well lets start with friday.... on friday morning i went to the hospital for the MRI thingy they said it would take 2 hours for the MRI it took 10 min. but it took 2 hours in the waiting room so technically they didn't lie. then i went home went back to the hospital for judi's surgery... around 1:30ish i went to my mom's for the weekend and thats what happened on friday!! on saterday i got the best valentines day present ever!! well i got a lot of chocolate 4 stuffed animals and a huge arguement with joe <-- my moms boyfriend then we went down to mass. with my uncle and we wound up staying at my mom's friend's house...and my moms other friend michelle,her husband pete and 2 of their kids (alex and matthew) came over and i guess for some strange reason or reasons matt likes me... wow...and they were making jokes about it like "THE ONLY REASON MATT CAME IN WAS TO SEE SHONA" and when they were leaving his mother said "WELL YOU GUYS COME BACK DOWN SOON AND MY SON WANTS YOU COME BACK REALLY SOON!" then she looked at me..
on sunday the person who was supposed to give us a ride home didn't and we were stranded there...then we just sat and watched movies and mtv all day and i cried b/c i wanted to come home later on i found out that my mom's boyfriend is now her ex-boyfriend and he moved out took the t.v. and my birthday present
on monday we still didn't have a ride home so we had to call my nana to come get us and she said she would when my uncle got up so then she wouldn't have to drive alone on the highway..well...they got there around 11 or 11:30 so i got home around 12:30 and then i went to the orthipedic and he said that i don't have to wear the brace on my leg anyomre but i still have to avoid stairs and sports for another 3 weeks!!
today i went back to school and in math i had to go take a quiz then i got back and we had to cut out these shapes to see if the were symetrical or not man that was sooo stupid!! in science we did a lab and i was partnered with nikky and katie i had fun a lot of fun i like the slinkies i gunna go get one--j/k in english we wrote in our journals then we did the debate thing well wrote the opening statement thingy and then we read the books we're reading in class and i went crazy looking for my papers but i couldn't find them!!!!! then we went to lunch and i sat in the same spot i usually do and i talked to amanda then after lunch i had social studies and it was very interesting...lol then i had w.l. and it was ... interesting then i had gym and brett wore these tight spandex shorts and they were yellow <-- lucky it's not thursday lol... then i went to mr dorrs room to make up a test and he told me to go to mr.barratt's room then i wound up having to finish the test f/ friday and that took me until 4 amanda stayed after with me too and she thought that the soap on the table by the door was hand sanitizer or however you spell that and she put some on her hands and finally realized it was soap and i couldn't stop laughing it was soo funny then when i got home i did my homework cleaned my room called nikky then my dad called then i called amanda then i went to the mall and got a hat but they didn't have the color i wanted for the yankees hat so i got a light blue adidas hat. then i came home tralked on line and ate dinner now i'm here sooo that was my past like weekend and today sooo yeah... buhbyez

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Thu, 12 Feb 2004 07:33:51 PST

omg...it's been so long since i wrote in this... sooo... uhhh.... yeahhh... monday i went to school... tuesday i went to school... wednsday i went to school... and went to amanda's house directly after school b/c the maids came to clean the house... then i went to Bowl-O-Rama with amanda her sister and their dad... i drove to frnace!!!! who's thermos??? omg we had sooo much funnnn!!!!!!!!! except in the car b/c i had foot up her dad kept leaning back in the seat and it was pretty painful but i was a trooper!! today i went to school and in w.l. cody and i had to go to the library and make up a test that weren't there for so when we were done we just sat there talking for like 5 min. or something like that!! then we went to music and we watched a movie!!! then when amanda and i were waiting for my grandma to egt there we witnessed and episode of jerry springer jr. lol!! and now i'm here sooo yeah.....

it's almost all good

Sun, 08 Feb 2004 05:37:00 PST

well i woke this morning to my friend opening my bedroom door she slept ove last night! we had this contest thing to see who couldbe the quietest the longest and of course i won!! any way this morning around 8:30 my mom calledand said that if i chose to live with my grandma then she was gunna have to addopt me. i sarted to cry and then she just called back and appoligized for friday and what she said today. so its all well almost all good. i still don't have the heart to tell my dad that i wanna live with my grandma. i need help.my dads here right now but i don't how to tell him how i feel. i need to tell him!!!

omg!

Sat, 07 Feb 2004 05:09:25 PST

i can't believe i did that i mean she's my mom!! in case your wondering i got into the biggest fight with my mom yesterday when she came to get me for the weekend! well it all started when she decided to come get me for the weekend after talking to my dad. i guess he told her that when i went to the hospital for the second time for the same knee i was laughing when the doctor was bending whil i was saying oww. the reasone i was laughing was b/c i was making jokes to keep my mind off the pain.!.!.!

well anyway my mom came to get me and i asked her why she thought i was faking it and she didn't answer me so we went in the other room to talk and she decided that she was going to choose where i live (w/ her my dad or where i'm staying now my grandma's) and she decided to take me for the "weekend" but she was gunna take me to the court house and get full custidy of me!! and when i refused to go with her she got so pissed but i didn't care i wasn't gunna go with her. then my doctor called when my mom was forcing me to stand up and bend my knee! they said that i have to have an MRI done! well then my mom said "well if you come with me this weekend i'll do what you wana do"and i said "well then i want you to leave me the hell alone and go home with out me" and she said "no i'm not leaving you here your coming with me whether i have to drag you to the car or call the police to come get you"
i sadi "forget you i don't want a thing to do with you starting now go home" then i sarted crying and hopped to my roomshe followed and i slammed the door in her face and then locked it and told her to leave so she called my dad and said that she was going to get custidy of me and have me put in an ALL GIRLS FOSTER HOME i don't think so.. she finally left after tricking me into letting her into my room and me refusing to give her a hug goodbye she said "shona look at my b/c this is the last time you ever have to see it is that what you want?" and i said"yea thats exactly what i want now leave me alone and go home"
then i sarted crying idk why i did that i'm sooo stupid i think i deserve to die now...

uhhh yeah.. i'm a bad daughter i hate my self for saying that i really do!!

well thats all for now buhbyez